I'm very sorry for this bad moment you are going through.
It's an immense pain to lose someone.
I can't imagine the pain of that poor mother who had to let go of her baby who had just come into the world.

I wish we could erase death, at least until a certain age, then when we are very old, after living a full life and the body is so tired that it can't take it anymore, then death is more acceptable.