Hmmmmm, when I read post like this I'm propelled to give or offer hope and encouragement to those passing through a lot. I'm so sorry your husband is late. This may have probably weakened you but you still strive to be a caregiver, rendering help to those who need even at your own loss. I can't wait for the time when our creator will make us perfect humans again without us needing to be caregivers again as sickness would be no more. Wishing you best of luck in this challenge and looking forward to reading more of your posts