RE: Getting Lost (Friday Prompt)
Inner happiness matters alot, life isn't easy at all and is up to us to ensure that we conquer all our difficulties. We are all human beings and there's always a time we get sad and happy as well.
I remember when I was in high school, I felt so depressed to the extent I was always thinking of suicide, I really wanted to leave this earth for good, I found myself imagining my own burial ceremony, I knew if I die people will cry but they will still forget me, everyone will move on and forget that a guy like me exists.
I was a very broke guy even if I was living under my parents, I wasn't just happy at all, most people around me saw me as nothing, I kept on writing sad songs and also life touching storybooks until I finally found little happiness that made me forget about suicide.
I decided to fight my problems and I was determined to win, I joined steemit hoping to make some money here while showcasing my talents in my first year in steemit. Things are difficult now but I believe I will survive. I hope you are doing good.
This is another massage of positivity. Well, I did the same things . I was 8 years old that I drunk a kerosene we used for out lamp every night. I was too young thinking of that but I did. They didn't know what I was doing until now it was a secret from my parent. I just open this online with friends. My parent returned to heaven without knowledge about this.
Your comment made me stronger. Thank you for sharing and dropping by.
Oh my God 😳, you went to the extent to drink kerosene and also every night! Can please share your experience after drinking it, who did your body system react to it?
Based on what you said, I discovered that your parents are no longer alive, do you have siblings?
Pleasure ☕
God has a purpose to me. That time , I felt normal. I just smell bad in every breath I inhale exhale. I am now 54 years old this coming October 9. I am a suicidal person but I am stronger than those challenged because I am still alive and have purpose given to me. Being the eldest among siblings, I have all the responsibilities most especially when I was a child. They let me got absent to take care of my siblings then I saw my mother was pregnant again while the youngest sister was still infant, it made me cried worrying how could I go to school if they give me more siblings? That was the root of my child depressing moment. God save me.
Oh I see, this was a very serious issue, your parents didn't also notice it was making you depressed.
You are fortunate that the kerosene didn't have much effect on you my friend, is very dangerous to drink kerosene and if it had killed you, your parents will be very sad for a long time, am just happy you didn't die.
Am also the first child and my parents aren't financially stable, they request me for money to support the family and I get no option but to help them, this became a weekly something and am currently sad about it because I only earn money from steemit for the past one year now. Things like this always pressure me to keep on working hard here.
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I am still lucky my friend. God is good .
Definitely 🙂