What a heart touching story. You really went through a lot. I understand that feelings of getting little bucks from your parents whereas your mates are receiving huge amount from their parents just for snacks. It's good you didn't commit suicide because that's not the best solution, i also thank God you came to know Steemit. You're a changed person now because of Steemit, I'm sure you'll be bold enough to tell your friends that no condition is permanent.