It really is hard, but it is possible. All of us have been where you are and it just takes patience and stubbornness. The fact that you commented back is proof that you have both. Have you heard about the Steem Terminal? @steemterminal is a discord server that was created to assist people like yourself who need help with questions. We take "real time" questions and give "real time" answers. Please look us up in discord by following the link (click on the banner)

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You can also contact us directly in our posts or @steemterminal as well.
Look forward to hearing from you.
Ren