The irony here Crypt is you may not know the degrees you have touched people with your blog at Steem. I know it's easy for me to say since I cannot feel your pain. But what the others say is true. That God is using you in all his Glory.
I know you are a God fearing person like me so I think you know this.

But I realize the pain can be totally numbing for you as well. Just keep praying and praying and I will do the same for you