I have always been extremely cyclical. I 'have' adhd and also depression (though I'm not convinced my depression is a strictly biological thing, because I can name the reasons). But they are deep, existential, and I also have learned to ride them out and be gentle with my expectations. I thought I may have bipolar due to the fact that i feel so godamn in love with the world and people most of the time, but for me they are not manic, I still sleep and to me I feel like that is me , I'm just sort of weird and hyper. I have tried different things for depression and adhd and its such a long complicated journey to find a good balance. I've still got some work to do on mine for sure haha. Thank god not everything in this world has a demanding schedule, there is still some wiggle room for our muses ;)
For sure on that wiggle room. I've purposely put myself in a position where I don't have to be on a schedule as much as I can, because I I can't dictate when I'm going to be having a manic or depressive phase. It for sure is a journey as well, I've after 20+ years have learned as best as I can to work with it rather than let it work against me. I wish you the best on doing so as well. Much love.
Yeah, learning to just accept that I will not function on a schedule took a lot ( on top of finding how to function in society there is a lot of shame in thinking I just wasn't trying hard enough), but goddamn I am so much better off <3
I now sleep when I'm tired and wake up when I'm not. We will see how this plays out, but so far its such a burden lifted.
That feeling of "not trying hard enough" is so real, I get it, I get it.
Off topic but since your new, this is a great tool to have steemworld.org/@djfugly I was super stoked when I found it here.
Yeah I've seen it, just not sure what it's used for other than stats
Besides helping me keep an eye on my vp (i'm not obsessive but once it drops to low you are missing out on the full potential of what you are gifting people), it also shows what percent/how much someone votes you for. This I really only notice when someone gives me a vote that is like .2% and at 0. they want me to see their name for a vote but made it wrth zero,which makes me think they are just trying to get my attention instead of actually engaging with me. Also, you can easily see replies back to you so you don't have to scroll through your replies, I guess just a single source for a bunch of stuff to make steemit interaction less confusing.
Yeah that vp thing I'm not sure how you change the percentage at all anyway. So I've just clicked "vote" hmm guess I'm doing something wrong
you get a slider at 500 Sp I think, until then us peasants are at 100% lol. There is an app I heard about that allows the slider earlier but mine is only at .02 so I leave it at 100 for now (I got hacked and some my sp is in mid undelegation so i'm not even quite .02 right now)