From the moment I saw your post, I became even more grateful for the things that appears simplest and basic to me.

One thing is sure, I admire your courage.

I will however love you to continue basking strong.
Enjoy life the best way you can.
I'm sure you are trying to do that

And I will love to leave you with a charging phrase:
"It could have been worse than this"

Say this to yourself each time you feel down.