Wow, this is a great post. I know what its like to be in pain and to always downplay it. I've been in pain every single day for more than 20 years now. Its very draining. You are right about choosing to wallow in it or trying to find the positive, its always better if you can focus on the positive and let go of the negative. You are also right about it being okay to have days when you can't put on the brave face and the pain wins, we are only human after all. :D God bless you. :D