Thank you so much for sharing man,
I can relate to a lot of what you're saying.
It's a very weird feeling you get when playing video games.
When you're playing, its almost like you're living in a care free world. No stress.

But, when you aren't playing and you look back on the time spent playing, for me at least, I feel regret.
Not to say that I haven't met great people playing video games and had amazing fun, but it's just a drastically opposing feeling I get when I think of the time I spend playing, as opposed to when I'm in the act of playing.

Thank you again for sharing!