Thanks... there are some games that are so strongly linked to life events for all of us! It could be a good memory or otherwise...

Anyway, I do love the permadeath and really hard-core gaming. As long as the game is fair about it (so the enemy is playing by similar rules and fair scripted events).... it really adds a welcome degree of tension. I love BattleTech (with the crazy huge community mod) or XCOM2 for this sort of thing!