This struggle called life challenges us all! You write well regarding the inner turmoil many face when troubles beset us.
Often, it is our reaction to trials that make or break us. You end with:

Perhaps I should dream.

I could not agree more. Goals and dreams have brought me out of deep troubles and provided fortitude. Small accomplishments toward those dreams encourage me. Baby steps at times were all I could, and at times still can muster, but that small pin prick of hope has fed me through impossible seeming darkness. hugs!