Five Minute Freewrite - If you have any thoughts, please let me know

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Oh so many thoughts. Thoughts about how I should be journaling. I should write out what the whole experience was like, giving birth. I've told the story a few times, but it's not written anywhere, and my memories fade day by day. I realized yesterday that I don't have very strong memories of the layout of the house I spent my teenage years in. Even less so of any house I lived in before that. I remember, yes, in a general sense, but the images are fuzzy around the edges. Everything is fuzzy around the edges for me, in the past. I guess that's the way it should be? Live in the present. That's all there is. But journals help us keep the past alive, and that's useful, I think. I haven't written in my journal at all since Lochlan was born. I've gotten consistently worse and worse at journaling since I exited my teenage years. But I should. I should. Now it's just that I'm so tired all the time. I have a hard time doing tasks that require much of me. Is that even true? No. It's not. What is true is that journaling feels like a thing that one should have an open-ended amount of time for, and I don't have open-ended amounts of time for anything. My time always has a cap on it now. This is life, breastfeeding. I wonder if I'll pump at all. It's easier not to, it seems.