Freewrite - Good morning sunshine

I know I messed-up bad...
I know I hurt him....
I shouldn't have done that...
It was a stupid move but I still did it anyway...
I didn't care at that time...
I thought he wouldn't take it seriously..
But here I am...
He said he needed a break,i hope I don't lose him

I'm so sad and tired,I wake up every morning with regrets, over thinking, wishing I didn't do that. He warned me, told me countless times in a joking manner and I just took it as a joke and now I'm here, stuck here, unhappy, with no reason whatsoever to smile.

He was my best friend turned lover, my mentor, my guide, my playmate, my gossip partner, my confidante, it will be difficult to just forget him because of the amazing moments we've shared. We grew up together as friends and started dating a few months back,i thought it would be easy since we knew each other too well. How did I not know that doing some things won't be cool anymore since we're now lovers?

This is bad you know, it's been three weeks now and no words from him, he won't take my calls or reply my messages. How do I make him understand that I love him and miss him, I want him back so bad it hurts, I'm truly sorry for misbehaving and being selfish.

Well, I don't think I can continue like this, I really have to let go, for me, for my own own sake and peace. Can't believe I haven't felt the sun on my skin for weeks, I thinks it's time for a change. Deep down I know I can't, maybe I should get busy with something so I can forget and move on...

It was Saturday, I woke up, said my prayer,turned my music on and cleaned my house, did the laundry and dishes... My house smell nice today, Ate breakfast and wow, I smiled for the first time in weeks.

Then I heard the door bell ring, oh I really wish it's him.. But no, it was a delivery man, I took the package, opened it,awwww.... I've always wanted a big ass White/pink teddy bear and only one person could have sent this...

I quickly grabbed my phone and saw a message which read Good morning sunshine

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