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Title ideas:

“Conversations with my father”

“In the kitchen, at my parents house”

“Things that have caused me to cry recently”

“What I travel with”

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Things that have caused me to cry recently.

A scene in the first season of Hannah Montana where Miley and her dad talk about how much they miss her dead mom.

With my friends on newyears eve, feeling so wanted and loved and then remembering I wanted to stay home and Sophie said “if you stay I’m leaving”. I thought maybe it would have been fun to be together — guess not.

Asking « why do you dislike talking about your health so much, it’s really hard for me to not talk about it»

A text saying “come to Arizona, I miss you” and a voice from the kitchen saying “I miss you so much it hurts, whenever you’re gone”

an Instagram story from Paris — actually, every single one; they call this “longing.”

Explaining to my doctor that I definitely do have a mental illness but I don’t think it’s interfering with my ability to make decisions about which parts of my body I do and don’t want to have inside of my body anymore.

Explaining to my sister how much heavier an o-negative liver feels — I think it’s over-sized anyways, it’s health and size makes standing extraordinarily painful these past few months. “please take some away so that I can feel light again”

Remembering that 18 months after you didn’t want me anymore you called to say « it took me 18 months to stop physically feeling the absence of your toes arched around my calf while im sleeping » it’s going to take me another 18 to get over you saying that.

Photos of snow being made.

Mac Miller’s new song, over and over again. At first because it’s terrifying to relate so cohesively your someone who’s life is unraveling so completely at the time.. later because it’s liberating to hear someone phrase your pain so eloquently.

News that a friend passed.

XX Monique

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