You always make me laugh even though I know this is very serious for you, you didn't ask for an opinion but I tell you this year you are older and next year you are more. Pending that the other one doesn't come and so on. Keep on enjoying the happiness that is inside you. You're like 25? that age is like a quarter of something. A hug Berlin be nice to @anomadsoul and see if it lasts longer than 3 months over there.