Thanks, @kimberlylane - honestly, I should just stop writing about it and stuff it all down, like my parents and sisters did, but there's too much in me of Inigo Montaya and his lifelong quest to find the six-fingered man ("You killed my father. Prepare to die!"). There are no answers, no solutions, no reparations, no justice, but I keep agitating for the impossible. Let it go? When I die. I know, I know. Thanks again. :)