Unfortunately I didnt win the appeal. I was told most judges dont like to overturn other judges decisions and therefore although the appeals judge stated I DO have strong evidence of support and change he wasnt willing to overturn the decisions by the pcj....Therefore I dont get a new trial to cancel the CCO (continuing custody order)....something I have been trying in BC for over 2 years now, MCFD CAN overturn it, they also CAN allow visitation by me and her 2 brothers- YET THEY DONT. MCFD can decide that after this amount of time without even acknowledging they might have made a mistake (which we all know they wont) they can see that her coming home is the best thing for her!
How much money have they spent on my daughter for court?- 3 supreme court, over a dozen provincial applications!
SHE IS ALMOST 10 YEARS OLD NOW...
They have significantly brainwahsed her and its almost like she has a fear of her own family, something a year ago she DIDNT HAVE- she cried in the back seat of the supervisors car and BEGGED me to take her home....I couldnt save her from MCFD....I couldnt DO anything. that was the last time I saw her!
I dont know what more I can do- being stable, having one child at home, happy child, a house, pets, job, no questionable people in my life, no significant other, and no emotional, unstable issues.... MANY supportive letters from numerous counsellor, therapist, as well as groups I have attended....SO MUCH, yet nothing is noticed.
I am feeling really down, and really at a loss for words today, something I normally dont have. I miss my girl, and the fear inside me that I have lost her for good is growing every so quickly....The fear that I am a stranger, that her brothers are just people in her past....I was told recently something I dont agree with....
I was told I am her birth mother, that its a privilege to birth a child, and I dont agree with that statement- I wanted children, I love kids and knew all my life Id have 3, I knew when I was pregnant she was my daughter, I felt her and felt love that second, it was special, you do whatever you can to protect that, yet I stayed in a crappy relationship, I got charged for weed...I made stupid mistake, AND I FIXED IT!.... it can be taken away at a drop of a hat....that that privilege can be taken based on a bad relationship or issues you have had with abuse by a partner, even criminal activity however small it may be....(I never had a record before I met my ex and never had an abusive relationship before his...this wasnt some pattern) THAT PRIVILEGE CAN BE TAKEN BY AN AGENCY THAT IS SUPPOSED TO PROTECT OUR CHILDREN FROM THEIR OWN PARENTS IF THEY "HAVE ASSUMPTIONS OR OPINIONS OF NEGLECT" It DOES NOT have to be substantiated, it only has to be "their opinion" it only has to be thought how I messed up....They say I never deserve to have her back, although I have made DAMN SURE my life is no longer as it was 5 years ago!
thank you for all your support, for following, for reading, and HOPEFULLY SHARING....I hope that my stories may help others, clearly I cannot help myself....and I cannot help my daughter, whom I feel is in desperate need for me to be there for her..... she has her sadness locked away, she only knows what they tell her. she is their robot!
MCFD is abusing her emotionally, mentally and psychologically (a crime if a parent does this) by the loss of her family she knows lives right next to her and she will only suffer in the long run what they have done to her, she WILL learn the truth one day and HATE them for everything they have done, that I am sure of! I am perfectly capable of having her home....I am GOOD mother!
Although they FEEL this is whats in "her best interest" what does that even mean? Having no contact with family.
I cannot find help, no one will listen, and MCFD has the most power, higher then any other organization, so WHO DO WE GOOD PARENTS TURN TO? I NO LONGER HAVE THAT ANSWER. (tears) I dont want to quit...In my heart, I just cant quit on her.
She looks just like mom...with her hair in a bun! :( I love you, my daughter.