@beemillz thank you for the support. Luckily I dont live in Holland anymore, I now live in Budapest. Writing is healing to me. It has been a few days since I wrote something about that period, as my oldest daughter who I didnt see in 2 years now turned 8. And as you may understand those days are hard, and I am not at my best then.. Hope to write some more tomorrow ;-) thanks for the support and I will finish that book this year!