jungle

no lion can protect the jungle I live in, for the darkness that falls around me clouds the very light i try to keep bright. You don't know my story and some will say that i'm needy, but believe me it's the same people that, has accomplish being alone that won't reach out to help those that helped them long ago. What are friends, who can you count on, who's that shoulder for the words of encouragement when u cloud won't disappear from around your head. I lay myself down with depression only to be alone in my own bed. This is my story there is no end to the simple games that has been played for centuries begin. I'm told to keep my head up move forward, press on if I may add. but even alone is hard. As a soldier your brothers stand side by side willing to charge.
willing to take a stand, never leaving a falling comrade were those my true friends. The mark of a man that knows his value will be able to look past the simple part of depression because they have there buddy helping when he or she is about to fall. No lion can protect the jungle in which I live in, cause there's seem to be no friend to call.. I don't want a relationship with a women that thinks of her Ex. I don't want the heart to be too Complex. I don't want to be hurt again because you thought you can change me. From beginning to end I'am what you see. I don't want a confuse heart born of fire and rage. I don't want to end up another person turned page. The truth is I know alot of people, different life style different names, can you fault me for ladies for knowing too many women. Sorry for having to had grown up with mostly only women. I don't want someone who is gonna judge me because of my past. You think you can look down on me why are you still single. think before u answer so fast. But what I do want is pretty simple and plan. I want a women that takes care of herself, from head to toe, no I don't mean by the clothes she wears but her body her mind and spirit. I want someone that want me, not what they thing they can change I am human I will always not have wat you want or need, but let my heart be clear you won't be mislead. I want to not to be confused with being hurt because I ask for ur time. I want to give you all I can instead of someone else having what's mine. I want a women who not only there in good times but in the bad as well, who will pick me up no matter how many times i fail. i wouldn't ask for what Im not willing to give. I want a women that know what she want and know how to live.... This is all I ask can you see. it's that simple but hurt to achieve. no matter the bad weather my storm never last long. but one day i will have wat i ask for and it won't be wrong The criminal lust of one heart beat, the sicken stomach of one defeat. you no laughter no shame or sorrow. yet you get up the next day to prepare the hurt of tomorrow. it has no name it just plays its own game. Out of the distant of love you crept in. didn't need to see a face, it faith choose lust over friends, a terrible disgrace. lean me ova kiss me on my forehead listen to my trouble and let me leave. no one could ever know that i was here, and for this your heart will be deceived. in conclusion to my thoughts things will never be regain. and I should be sorry but, right now Im worried only bout my own pain head of state, makes me easy prey, for the leaking of the weak in the the baaaaa of a sheep. you don't make it easy, yet i won't stray away. like a whisper the sweetness taste that unbelievable thought. that care taker of my heart, for i know cupid your far apart. I don't complain about the sun, and i sometime enjoy the rain so no one can see the hurt i feel, hiding all my pain. head of state make easy prey. As for its told its like lava heating in my vain. 8 days the sun rose up out of the darkness of the cold grounds, I turn away because I could only think about missing your smile, the break of the heart makes my world stop from going round. Like the whisper of bugs creeping in the shadows the chills upon my spine as my favorite day passes , One day left I dream again looking at the present of arts. I turn away once more as the sun burns away the ashes. Day 7 appears I'm sitting with my aching back against the walls wonder why so many wars to the heart falls, My eyes close from the sunset to end i pray lost in my sorrow week. I kiss goodbye to sunday So You Think.... So you think my love is fake because, of the writing of how i felt, you neva even gave the chance, love was just like wax, continuing to melt.
So you think I didnt mean my words, the days and nights I worried because there was no attention coming from you.
now u want me to leave like i didn't have this clue. Im not gonna put it on you, the truth is the way i feel you will neva understand. because while i was running around looking for u to look at me different, I remain an unworthy friend. So you think there's games when the truth is right there up ur nose, not once have u really wondering if I do feel this way maybe cause ur heart will always be stone cold. You was my helper the one Im forever humble to no doubt,
but because of ur misunderstanding u wanna put me out.
what did i say when i stop fighting that when the worries should come in the most. but by that time you wouldn't care u are ur own creators host. If I should Go. Build me a nest and let my head rest, take my heart and place it within a book. to hold dear to someone insides is cold. Lets my last tear be like a refreshed fountain. for the pureness of my soul will have come from the highest mountain. I only had one life to live but let my off seed be like a beacon of hope for life to come for im neva gone just distance, like the sun.   You second guess the hand that was dealt and your face falls straight for the door. Pls stop you say (right now) to me now. but what you did is more worth then wat you have bargain for. Years of chasing, of misleads, years of crying a typical disease. was it worth all the heart aches all the drama, all the name calling, while you still tryna face your demons I ponder. You ran the streets looking for love that wasnt there, wanded up on the wrong turn, and now your standing in fear. Yes life helps you to learn the choice we make, and not every choice is right. but who are you to judge if your fight is not even justified in ur own light. Sit in the corner think about what you say, cause the things you bring to the table you will probably be eating it some day. don't be mislead, don't be so rude, your sourness only leave you with no clue. If you felt these words then maybe this belongs to you. bitter sweet then to lose, but always remember it takes more then a second to walk a mile in my shoes