We will never understand God's whys :-( And I guess its His way to pull to him closer, so we never far away from seeking Him. Sometimes I wonder if its fair to God that we submit everything to Him even if some of the problems were due to our mistakes/choice. But I always believe God will never abandon us, painful journey yes, but it opens our eyes and hearts after that. I have seen and experienced His miracle before, that is why I believe He will always be there - in His time.