Stand tall as it sounds as if you overcome many things. I have similar views as you in life and agree that not many see things for what they are (Lots of self serving people out there but lots of kind people as well). Keep being you and keep fighting the good fight. I wish you nothing but the best.
It seems like everything I say or do is wrong. I try my best, I truly do. My best just isn't good enough for anyone.
I'm always the bad guy in the end, always the one who gets left behind.
Idk what to do anymore, and I wish I could just be ok with being utterly alone in life. I guess it's a weakness, but I think it's a normal human trait to not want to be alone.
Thank you for your kind and uplifting words. I'm trying my best, day to day.
Keep your head up man. It sounds like you have anxiety as I know people who have bad cases of it. I myself have a touch of it and it can be an SOB to deal with.
Don't let the demons win .... Wake up every morning look in the mirror and remind yourself of the good person that you are. I mean that in the literal sense. ... Look yourself in the mirror and say positive things about/to yourself. ... Ex. I'm a good person and todays going to be a good day. Send some positive vibes your own way. It may sound funny but It works.
I got this idea from a friends house I visited. They had some paper taped to their bathroom mirror that had a bunch of positive stuff written on it. It was positioned in such a way that anyone who went in to wash their hands would have to read it. I thought it was one of the coolest ideas I have ever seen to uplift people.
I really appreciate you taking the time to help with perspective.
I just can't shake the idea that if I was good, people wouldn't keep leaving me.
Yeah, anxiety and depression are rough. I'm very much fighting the urge to drink right now. I just don't see much point in anything anymore.
I'm not sure if the positive mirror thing would help. I very much love myself and believe I am a good person. I can't help it that I feel the need to speak my truth and refuse to put a filter on myself. That would be fake.. and whenever I say anything that seems to challenge someone, they just dump me like a rotten sack of potatoes. This is why I am so perplexed and feel I must be delusional or something. If I was good, I would not be abandoned and utterly alone in life.
Life is a trip man, and it hasn't been a great one. I very much just want to get fucked up. I don't even know what is stopping me at this point.
I very much use to do the very same thing you are describing (challenging peoples opinions). I still do to an extent but the older I get the more I try and not speak out unless its truly needed.
Instead I just shake my head at those who spout out stuff just because it sounds good or because its the politically correct thing to say.
The more time that passes the more I realize most people prefer to be lied to if it means that lie is in line with their beliefs / statements they usually make. They don't want to be challenged and shown to be wrong. Many people seem to have the I'm right because I'm right syndrome so its pointless to debate with most.
As you said in your topic .....3 years sober .... being 3 years sober is a great reason for you not to get fucked up. Keep that 3 years rolling ..... Don't give up.