Versatile Specialist

I spend a lot of time pondering on varying topics; one minute I'm analysing strength of material, mechanics of machines and fluid dynamics while in the next minute I turn into this writer who paints dreams with his pen. I haven't decided on what I am or want to be, constantly searching for answers to different questions bothering me.
I have often talked about how my dream is to be an Airplane repairman, I've come to terms with the fact that I may not be the pioneer/inventor of of a mechanism but studying the brilliance in someone else's work and fixing errors within is probably my strength and this led to my "final dream". In these bleak circumstances my mind wanders into terrains unheard of, arguing with myself about the what, who, where or why and getting solutions to problems no one asked me to solve.

I have prayed for redemption and treated myself like an I'll patient but in the midst of it, the still voice from within makes me believe that perhaps my of floundering cum bumbling ways me have a pattern or as they say, " a method to my madness". I truly hope it won't all be a waste of time and my mastering of versatility won't come back to haunt me. Until the meet again, I shall let the pen breathe.