i think you and i may be quite similar in this way... and i don't know many people who feel as strongly and innately as i do about it, but i feel the same way as you about being outdoors... to me it really is the divide - inside/outside... i always felt uncomfortable indoors, especially in the horrid white walled and fluorescent lit places! i can feel the constriction in my memory as i read your words
I just wanted to be outside, I felt no love in this building, I did feel fear and at times resentment. It's amazing when we are young how open we are to other people's energies.
i grew up in the church too and felt so clammy and uncomfortable, so weighted down upon in the church too, as a sensitive..
i actually didn't know being indoors could be cool until i went into my first natural building that was straw bale made with clay plaster and other totally cob buildings. there my body still could relax and i did still feel the earth energies and the things that make me naturally happy. that changed my life and is the reason i'm on the course i'm on now! we gotta listen to those moments and our bodies. XOXO
Yes, to me it is so unnatural especially in brightly lit paces, this sterile environment that some people try to create so scared of nature creeping in. I need to be outside everyday, living in a truck I can hear the wind, the rain and also feel the wind when it is strong enough to rock us. This is the environment that I need to live in, it is what keeps me happy and connected. I have no desire to live amongst thick walls, that shut out nature. Thank you so much for your response @mountainjewel it's really nice to keep connecting with you both x
yesss in contact with these such-alive things <3 makes our spirits free! agreed, so nice to connect XO