I can so relate to this feeling. As much as I wanted to do the road trip in July, only a single day, it was a tense and unrelaxed time. And I slept for a whole day afterwards! I have been living, just as you described, right down to the uncombed hair and raggedy clothes (are we mirror images???), for the best part of 20 years.

I could not take the stress of living outside, it was literally making me more and more ill. Since retreating to the homestead I've slowly regained health. I sometimes think I want to go out, see people and do things, but mostly, it quickly passes.

If I do decide to go, it takes a lot of planning ahead, because I know I will pay for the stress afterwards. Sometimes, like a favorite niece's wedding, the trade off is worth it. :))