I'm so sorry to read of what you've been going through these past days in this beautiful and painfully honest post. Rage can be a catalyst for tremendous change, but oh, Lord, it is such a difficult one. It does, however, help you reclaim power you gave away -- and hold onto it.

Life has been complicated for me, too, lately -- just not in the same awful way. I did manage to get back (finally!!) to the comment you left on my post last week. In case it slipped through the cracks in all the current chaos (Mercury is retrograde after all!) ... let me lead you back to it here: https://steemit.com/astrology/@enchantedspirit/mercury-retrograde-rethinking-your-present-direction

Do continue to heal -- whatever it takes. My heart and prayers are with you.