I know, I'm kind of in the same position right now, I lost my source of income and I'm confused and afraid. But you still have your books, your shirts, maybe you can write you story too. I know that you don't know me, but I'm the most loyal person that I know, and if I care about someone I kinda never stop caring, so you can count on me being here to remind you who you are every time you need. Keep rocking girl, you can conquer the world if you want.