Hm, yes, I have witnessed your frustration from time to time and I don't blame you for feeling some resentment :-/

A break would be the best thing to do actually. Just let go of any expectations/goals/quality requirements, whatever, put everything in 'holiday mode' and just let it sit here for a while. Then at some point you'll notice what you like to share regardless of all the secondary stuff. I did a 'mental break' a while ago and I actually posted more because I had let go of what I should do with my blog :')

Why is Steem such a mental f-ck up.

The irony is that I could have people swarming around me if I bought Steem, but I hate the thought of that.

You could still invest on a secondary/anonymous account without posts and downvote the shit out of some people after the next HardFork :D Just for fun and to make up for some resentment :')