relax dude lets move i cant make sad comments about this to make you feel sad wont sympathise at all. because beleive me you will be the best soon. life is very harsh and unpredictable. we cant plan anything we never know what wil help ans whatcomes and goes but buddy stay focused and wish the best for you in up coming days ahead. hope i will see soon another vlog about your improvements. wish we can help indeed but to be very honest i am like the same fish in the same sea. stay blessed