DnW Poetry Contest #6: MY SUNRISE
everything that keeps me sane.
Every time I hear your voice,
your laughter echoes through my brain
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You're everything I want, and everything I need
I want to make you smile in a way this world envies
I'll be the angel of your fantasies,
the cause of laughter in your sleep
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So sexy, so enticing
you're the center of my dreams
Oh god, I love the way you feel
and the way you make me scream
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Pretty lights and starry nights
don't even compare to the beauty in your eyes
You're even better than the sunset burning fire in the sky
I've been trapped within the darkest times, and you are my sunrise.
The place I was living started to become increasingly more toxic at an alarming rate, but my roommate was my best friend, my soul sister. I had met her in jail during a 6 month stretch, sober and exceptional. Her soul was the most beautiful soul I'd ever come in contact with and I didn't want to leave her. Her mother asked me to watch out for her and make sure she didn't miss her methadone in the morning, and it put a lot of pressure on me. I felt responsible for her recovery in a way, and it became a weight that held me in a place that was extremely dangerous to my mental state. We were toxic to each other, and I knew that but I couldn't make the decision to leave. So one night after work, I asked her friend to drop me off at Aaron's. Long story short, we were pulled over, I was arrested, and sentenced to 45 days in jail.
Still coming off of Xanax, the withdrawals had me suicidal and homicidal all at once. Perhaps I'll write about that another time... I assumed God hated me, he gave me something amazing and stole it before I could really hold it. But I was wrong. Aaron stayed. He waited for me, paid to talk to me on the phone every single day... My jail sentence then became an act of Divine Intervention. I couldn't step up and make a decision about my living arrangements, so God took over and did it for me. He erased all the garbage from my life and only left with me with the people I needed most. My family... and Aaron. I wrote this for him, waiting for the day I could finally hold him again, cheesing like a school girl every time I heard his voice and 3 years later I still feel the same. He's my soulmate and I stay falling. The first person in my life actually worthy of a poem.
I love the story of this poem are you stil together ?
Thank you !!!((: Yes we are (: The first day my mom met him she told me I would marry him. That was hardly 3 months in. Wev've been together almost three years now. That's the longest I've ever been able to deal with someone without being annoyed lol
I am so glad to hear that :D
Wow, I fucking love this. Such a beautiful love, just shows how our most difficult times can result in the most precious gifts.
Thank you lovely <3 I've been an athiest since I was seven and learned the truth about santa. Never in a million years did I think I'd catch my self believing in him.. I did a 180 the moment Aaron entered my life and I like to think he's become a better person since being with me. Realistically, It probably won't ever compare to what he's done for me. I live in a fantasy world and he keeps me grounded(:
You never fail to amaze. Your story was very intense and hard yet you manage to pull yourself and see the light with the help of the living gift - Aaron- that God has given to you. You survived and you learned a lot from all your experiences. It takes courage and strong willpower to survive in that kind of experiences. It's never too late. Even if we aged, it will never be too late. It may sound like God has forsaken us but, He will not give us trials that we can't overcome. On the brighter side, you are now a strong and courageous lioness with an Almighty One who will guide you on every journey that you will take! I salute you for that.
Thank you for joining and for sharing your experience.
Thank you so much! And thank you for holding the contest and taking the time to read my entry (: It was definitely an extremely rough time, especially during the first couple weeks. I never would have made it without Aaron. My mom says he's my spirit guide and i can't help but think she's right. He has followed me through the dark and pulled me from the depths of evil hands on multiple occasians. I thank God for him everyday <3
When we meet "the one" it's an encounter like no other. Nothing is ever the same afterwards :)
So true. He makes me want to be a better person and there's not a single being in this world who could do that before he came along. (:
Congratulations :) I'd say you've earned that for sure :)
I was smiling the entire time throughout reading the poem and your story afterwards. I felt how truly happy you are to have your soulmate in your life and I am so glad you found that person! Just the thought of that makes me happy and smile as well :)
Thank you so much <3 That's how you know you've got a beautiful soul. Are you an empath like me, perhaps? I was smiling the entire time I wrote it. (: He's my angel, he showed me what love is truly supposed to be. People always say "When you know, you know." And I never understood that until him. Before him, everyone I was with was somehow my soulmate, my everything, whatever.... I laugh at the thought now. Like, they didn't even come close. The music that rang in my head the moment he said his name was everything, and I finally figured out what they meant when they said "When you know, you know." Because I finally knew.
Yeah I guess I am an empath. I still have to discover this kind of feeling but I am totally looking forward to it while not waiting or searchin for it. I trust that the right person will come to the right time into my life. I guess I can't truly understand it till I experienced it:)
You will (: I found it the moment I stopped looking. In fact, I had completely sworn off men and given up at that time. We met at a club and he was the only gentleman there. While every guy used the belt around my waist as a leash, he danced around me, didn't touch me once and his smile was so big, probably because he was the first person I didn't push away or dance away from lmfao It's true what they say about soulmates crossing paths more than once too.... honestly there are so many coincidences between us it's unreal. It literally feels like magic. I just wish I'd known it was supposed to feel that way. I would have saved so much time avoiding all those fucktards I dated prior to him.
That truly sounds like you two are meant to be together! :)
I like your poem ma'm .
resteemed :)
Thank you so much!! <3
I don't know if this fiction or real life story. The character in the story has alot of drama in her life but the catching thing is that love brought out the moonlight in the darkness of her life.
Haha it is a real life story. I had a lot of drama going on at the time. I almost always did before he came along and simplified everything. I'm a messy, very impulsive person, I run away and leave everything behind at the first sign of failure. I've got bpd so I'm pretty much always on the edge. He's helped me gain and hold control of myself and stay on track, and with him. Thank you for reading it, and taking the time to comment (: I really appreciate it. The fact that my story could be passed off as fiction is actually pretty awesome haha