Mr Wang! Mannnnnnnnn, I have a panic disorder. Its not awesome. I live in fantasy land most times. A lot of times I am not present in the forefront of my mind. Its really difficult to control my behavior. I have doctors telling me I have border line personality disorder and wanting to shove every med down my throat. I get treatment. On MY terms. Someone has to control these crazy doctors :)Good luck bro. Hang in there and live life.....even when it sucks.