Yep I was busy. And now I'm not so busy. 😂

This is such a roller coaster ride for me, by the time we "speak" things have changed again.

Since I wrote that comment I've had a few days feeling really dejected again and yesterday was back to considering walking away from Steemit.

Yesterday I went to a meetup in London which was fun. I had a good old moan and did a rather embarrassing job of "poor me" but I had a laugh too.

There were a couple of newbies there and. through talking to them, I was gratified to see how much I've learned about how this all works in the time I've been here.

This morning I feel I have come back to a place of equilibrium. Winning the League got me into my competitive side and, last week, I worked my socks off to stay near the top. I cam second which was good but I don't want to be living my life like that.

That then leads me into the despair of comparing myself to others and watching them upvote themselves, use bots whatever, to get ahead. Then I feel like I'm being left behind.

In the Leagues you pay heavily for self upvoting so I haven't been doing it I've been feeling jealous of those that do. The delegation is actually only 70 SP and doesn't really make much difference so I gave myself permission to do whatever I decide I want to do and lose the delegation if needs must.

I had a long lie this morning, rather than hustling to get up to reads posts and comments and I now feel free to do whatever I want to here. I am going to make sure I spend no more than 45 minutes at a time at the computer. That's important to me. And, for the rest, I'm just going to let it unfold with nothing off the table!

I'm feeling at peace with it all again and curious to see what happens from here.

Hope you're still feeling good too! 😍