Another day in the history of life, It's with heavy heart and fond memories I write about the demise of my grandma.
I woke up early this morning to the sad news of my life, during the steam hangout on whaleshares official server yesterday/early this morning my grandma was found dead.

For months now she's been nursing cancer of the breast at age eighty plus, she went for checkups, tests and treatments at different hospitals, funny enough results came out negative, doctors said they couldn't find anything wrong with that breast but to the naked eyes her breast was deformed with sores. Cause of this strange cancer is unknown till date (Africa is mysterious place, don't doubt it).

My grandma is someone I'm intimate with, I have a good relationship with her, I spent five years with her throughout my weaning period, I spent another time with her from 2014 to 2016 before I moved back to my mom's house - I have fond memories of her; She had a soul that was kind, giving, meek, over-protective, loving, patient, responsible, forgiving, mother-to-all, selfless, spirtual and caring. Her character is unexplainable, she's awesome, super mom, cheerful, warm in heart, amazing to the core.

_{I weep remembering her and the time we spent together}

My emotions woke up to the outer cold staring at the dark door of life, the cold hands of death snatched her from the living, She's an oldy, She's lived her life! I'm just pissed at the nature of her passing - pains, sleepless nights, swell at the left part of her whole body. Her health was horrible before my eyes the last time I visited which was after the November beam meetup organized by @aagbona / @agbona.

Money spent on her health was over 1.5 million naira ($4,908.48) - the whole family in this trying time did their best to gather funds for her treatment yet this strange illness defiled the collective effort.

She's gone to a place, a place of rest, now she sleeps in the Lord. Rest in peace mama for I will miss you. I remembered how you motivated me to get into the university, how you gave up the last dinner meal on several occasion for me alone and slept hungry, how you were restless when I was sick under your roof, how you gave me your last penny to sort out miscellaneous expenses, how you prayed for me, how you defended me in the face of my fierce uncles and aunts from corporal punishment when I went astray, how you washed my body and clothes as a baby, how my head slept on your breast when I cried as a baby, the excitement of how you leaped for joy when you heard a male(me) was born ( my mom told me this). The memories of me and you is too great, for records, the whole book in this world can't contain them.

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Let me console myself with the poem of late Tosyn bucknor. It reads:

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UNTITLED

“I look into the future and see me cease,
I feel no fear, my face won't even crease
My steps on this earth, a testament to life,
Leaving this place filled with strife
Don't cry for me, shed tears for yourself,
For each date you acquire gives you a little less.

Now I know why I live the way I do
And why my mistakes, no second look
If I live my life according to their pace,
What's my price in life's meaningless race?
Too much odds stacked against this fierce soul
So each hour, all I do is attain my goals.

Spent a lot of day searching for purpose
Then I put my thoughts into poetry and prose
This is why I was put in this world
Be a voice, Put emotions in words
For every tear I shed and times my eyes smiled,
Someone will have known every option I tried.

This cowardly heart felt fear not death
Prize I've earned since my birth
My vow to leave a lasting voice after I was
Find a loyal number to keep fighting my cause
Here lies she who lived short but well
No regrets for her, but all, her story tell.”

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_{My grandma ever looking young -- photocredit goes to my cousin.}

Mama was survived by her sisters, brothers, children, grandchildren, great grandchildren. Adieu mama - A life well lived, I will always love you.

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A big thank you to all those that sent/who will send their condolences before/ after this post.

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About the author

My name is udezee from Nigeria. A student in the university. Currently studying business education at lagos state university, located in the western part of the country. Presently in my second year of studies edging towards the third. The second son of my mother.

I joined the crypto space early this year. Thanks to enolife. I was introduced to whaleshares by afolwalex.

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