I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. I lost my dad and I know what it means to lose a loved one. As practical as we try to be, it's not easy. But that's how life is. I like what you said. All we can do is show the people we love - how much we love them. Hugging your mom and breaking down is not a bad thing. May be that's just what she needs, to know her son cares for her. I pray that your mom is happy every day of her life, and that you gain the strength you need to go through this.