Hey @rok

Man I went back and listened to your breakbeat! Frickin' awesome bro.
And I totally hear where you feel your limitations but honestly don't because you've got the talent and just like you highlighted with the Picasso quote, you just got to be doing it and it'll come

The only other thing I would add to your way of looking at creating pure master pieces is that yes, most of it is happy accidents and creativity does come from the strangest and most unpredictable places...

But having an image or sound in our mind while we craft... That's what we should have... There should be some kind of spiritual muse floating up there in the third eye or some kind of powerful and existential feeling in the heart... Something terribly melancholic, or extremely joyful...

That's why before setting out to create, it's best to try and tap into our higher selves and not "do it all alone" because I think it's when we try to create from our ego projection that we encounter what you I think aptly described as the terror of starting from nothing and fearing nothing good will come from it...

E.G.O is just "Edging God Out..."

You were clearly born with many wonderful talents along with a fantastic heart so don't put yourself down... The actual mastery like you say comes from those "10k" which is metaphoric for eating breathing and living your passion...

Do so and you will uncover within yourself everything you need to keep rising! I think with Steemit and this whole eco-chain, your best work may yet be to come!!!

Believe in you bro!

Don't push yourself to be your best... Gracefully become so!

Like that top comment! "Giving ourselves a break"
How frickin' true is that