I told you and @prettycynthia once: "the best writers aren't writers". You are finding out partly what i meant, by yourself.

I never read books in reality, when it comes to writing stuff. I don't know any of the books i have seen you mention. And when people rhyme their stuff to make poems, i went teoms with t being terry and beauty came out in the form of bizarreness. It is more about the things you can see that even the world can't. So when people go scolding a kid for always wearing their flip flops wrongly, i saw instead beautiful intelligence in that, the kids tend to do the wrong act correctly every time. While people were busy going for the fallen mango everytime, a select few picked up on the study of gravity. Your edge is in your substance. If that grows, you will be writer anyways regardless of language without barriers to entry. I use the example of a may weather and a mohammed ali, both boxers but one is on another level and may weather won't doubt it. Look at a mourinho in his presence and perhaps, a wenger and you will instantly see stark difference and if they have to compete even in writing, i am sure one will stand out over the other, not cos they where writers. As for being your nemesis, you can channel that into advantageousness and bring yourself into world-classness. Look for your edge and hone that and if i speak to you in one solid conversation, i can tell you your edge. "green run already says alot" and that is why i added "drawing your username" into the curriculum of the contest. And i apply your username into the stunts of my tiny convo with you to help you see new ways to play. Thank you for participating. You may not know how much you have learned but i try to pass so much to you in my small comment. Substance when it becomes substance isn't easily swayed. So if twas me, even if everyone says, you are ripe terry, write a book doesn't mean i may write a book, for i may go another route. I thought i was writer. I would sway everyone with my tiny text messages and handwritten letter. i was writing will you marry me proposals and these wives will say yes but i wasn't writer afterall. And you may not be writer either. Now, you may be a writer but pace things. So you doubting mind can be put to good use too. Read this comment closely, understand its concepts and context; look at it, more as life info and you will grasp.