Something Eventually Living Forgives

SELF

By Lymmerik

September 21, 2017

Most schools are well stocked with bullies. Tyler High was no exception.

The first day back to school from summer vacation, Elvin tripped coming into home room. The commotion caused a hush over the small class, then laughter.

Elvin collected his books and sat down at his desk just a moment before Mr. Cloud entered, jovially announcing that he had just witnessed a miracle.

"I saw Titus trip Elvin...and Elvin didn't even swear! Wait for it..." He chuckled.

Laughter filled the room and every head snapped toward Elvin.

"FUCK!" Yelped Elvin, slapping himself in the mouth.

"With that, class, tenth grade has officially commenced!" Announced Mr. Cloud

Everyone grumbled, except Elvin. He was looking forward to tenth grade and entering Tyler High's Got Talent show. His parents had signed him up with a vocal coach over the summer. He had a lot of talent...and Tourette's.


Elvin grew up with Titus. They played ball and rode bikes. But that changed when Titus' family moved across town. The two hadn't seen each other until last school year; both had changed.
Tourette's Syndrome is a fickle fella...and can befall someone seemingly overnight. With Elvin, something crazy occurred when he was in his first year of junior high, he struck his arm on the bleachers after a ballgame. Within two days he developed a twitch in his arm. As it worsened, other things began; a twitching nose, throat noises, and uncontrollable cursing. By the next school year, he was fully animated.
Elvin thought that Titus would still be his friend, but Titus had grown up to be a handsome young man, and Elvin not so much. Of course, they couldn't be friends anymore and it became trendy for Titus to pick on Elvin.

But, for all Titus had going for him, a jealousy stirred beneath the surface. He had looks, he had charm, but he couldn't carry a tune in a bucket! All Titus ever wanted was to become a pop star.


Eight weeks into the school year, Elvin was filling out, his skin was clearing up, just in time for the talent show. Now that Elvin was getting popular, Titus was withdrawing, ranting on social media, and his grades were falling. At every practice for the talent show, Titus loomed in the back, but time marched on.


Elvin stayed after classes the evening before the talent show to practice. Titus had missed classes that day, but had made a special drunken appearance at the practice. He mocked Elvin's Tourette's, he cursed him, and belittled his singing. Then he belched out this slurred monologue.

"Hey, tic-man, you think you're Elvis, don't you? Huh? Here's something for you to sing about one day."

Titus promptly pulled out a gun, put it to his head...and fired.

Elvin spoke at the school service the next week, giving a moving tribute to Titus. He ended with this...

"I noticed that Titus had changed over these last few months, he withdrew, he never asked for help. We all saw it, but we never offered to help. I was always in his crosshairs, but in the end, it was his own self that he couldn't overcome. We shall go on, grow into men and women, but over time there is something...eventually...living forgives. FUCKING Self"

Thank you for taking the time to read my ramblings!
@Lymmerik

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