Sounds like you have an interesting time ahead of you. I understand the host thing, I also find it hard. And you're right, it's mostly because it impacts the freedom to be myself, which is, of course, self-imposed. I have gotten a little better at staying true to myself over the years (lucky we don't get too many visitors). You run the risk of offending people which can lead to embarrassing situations with those you know less well and to arguments with those you are close to (such as parents). I'm glad I can be completely myself with my own little fam (other half and kids). I can't imagine life any other way. Good luck!