Today I will be writing about an issue that is not commonly discussed and it is also a sensitive issue but this issue is also widespread. Most importantly, it is close to heart. Very close heart. This issue is, depression.
There are a few types of depressions but the most common depression is Major Depression. The symptoms include:
- Feeling worthless or guilty;
- Loss of interest or pleasure in activities that you usually enjoy;
- Weight gain or weight loss;
- Feeling restless or agitated both physically and mentally;
- Being tired most of the time;
- Having trouble making decisions or concentrating;
- Having suicidal thoughts.
The feelings that are stated above are what I felt when i was battling depression in my teenage years. I wasnt a normal teenager, hanging out with friends in the mall, gossiping with friends or go on a shopping spree. I wasnt even focused on my study. I cared about nothing because i was numb emotionally. But for a person to have depressions, it is usually because they have been scarred or taken for granted. As for me, I was scarred. Not by my parents, of course, but by the adults that i grew up with.
When i was young, I was a happy kid. I was carefree, naive, adored by teachers. My parents brought me up well-mannered, respectful and confident. But everything started to crumble when I was in my teens. I was only a teen when people closed to me started criticizing me to extreme level. I was insulted, judged, scolded and even shut out by them. I guess that's where the "feeling worthless and guilty" part came in. I felt worthless because i feel like cant do anything worth while and because of the worthless feeling i had, i felt guilty for every little thing, whether it was my fault or not, i felt guilty for even existing.
If one person started feeling worthless and guilty, they start to lose interest or pleasure in activities that they enjoy. Because, what's the point? No one will be happy about it. I will definitely be insulted, judged and scolded even if I was doing something every teenagers will do. So, what's the point? Might as well just sit there and do nothing because everything you do ticks someone off, everything you do is considered 'not right' in someone's mind.
I will talk more into other symptoms and my own experience in my future post because I have arranged all the symptoms stated above according to my own experience and how they are related.
Thank you for reading and stay tune for more.