I've been thinking of a comment worthy of this post. It is not a post for a "get well soon" or a "good post". It's not a post for telling you what's "normal" or advice on how to fix all your problems.
I will, however say, go with peace and strive to be the you who want to be. Normal is a myth, a box that no one fits in.
~Mr Dingo
Thank you Mr Dingo. This was a cathartic response to a day of feeling misunderstood and undervalued, and wanting people who think they know the math as well as the problem to understand that the people they plug into their equations are not all the same value. Normal IS a myth, yet it persists.