You have well characterized the situation. I have a lot of respect for what your father told you, and have told my own sons I care little for the judgement of others, even of God, but expect that I will judge myself more harshly than anyone could, were I faced with eternity of perfect clarity regarding my actions, and that judgement is what I seek to square up to.

For some reason, even when I disable my adblocker and noscript, College Humor just won't open for me.

I very much appreciate the kind thought though!