MY ENTRY for 'Take a pic and comment' by Olivia08 and 'Looking back' by @wakeupkitty
When the sun goes down and sits on the horizon, we tend to feel that eerie feeling as we look afar. It looked so near yet so far. Have you felt the cold wind passing behind your shoulders when you glance at the seashore?
The calm water speaks silently to you. You would feel somewhat thankful for another day that God has bestowed upon us. As for me, it reminds me to thank God for another day of my life, for giving me another day to be with my loved ones.
At this point in time, there's nothing I can ask for more, but give thanks to the Lord Almighty for giving me enough strength and courage to face the morrow.
You know why my Steemit friends? Because it was my eldest daughter's birthday yesterday. It's like a knife struck deep in my chest. Looking back, I wish it was not the way it should be. It hurts to see your daughter go ahead of you without preamble. Why can people be so cruel just because she had a child born out of wedlock? She was only 16 then and even if the guy and his family wanted them to get married, the law still won't allow it just because she was still a minor. Where is justice here? You cannot marry because you're still a minor and you're condemned just because you had a love-child. That's hypocrisy of the law one cannot fathom. It should be the other way around. We should give them the moral support because they are at their most depressed moment. Oh dear, am getting emotional again, but I can't control my anger whenever I look back at the past. She was the first fruit of our love. We were there to stand by her side, but sometimes, people find it something worthwhile to talk about, notwithstanding their own faults in life. Forgive me my dear readers, because this seems like a freewrite now. It always makes your feeling grow lighter when you're able to air your grudges to those people who feel they're untouchables! If only time rolls back to date, she would have been a happy mom seeing that the eight-month old baby whom she left behind by taking her own life is now a sailor just like her dad.
As I write this essay while looking at the seashore, I can imagine her face, far above the clouds smiling down at me.
This is a mother's cry to her departed daughter...
This is my entry for 'Take a pic and comment' by @Olivia08 and 'Looking back by @wakeupkitty.
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It is really sad to read this and I cannot imagine the pain you are going through. Most parents fear that their child leave before them and for your daughter to have taken her own life due to the stigma of a narrow minded society is really heartbreaking. Stay strong and I am sure she is at a better place now💗.
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Thank you for your sympathy dear @marblely. All I could say is that people can be cruel when all you have in mind is to raise a happy family. Sigh ...
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Ahh at leasts naisulat mo yan @sarimanok pang release ba
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Thanks my friend. Birthday nya last 16th kasi tapos death anniversary nya sa 27th. Sakit sa dibdib... sigh..
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thanks for the mention, it's nice to know you more by your writing and see you along with @olivia08 na nihilak ug tagok sa tuba tuba, keep on steeming!
Gracias por contar su historia, a través de ti. Es una lastima lo ocurrido.
Pensar que son grupos que se autoproclaman seguidores de Cristo y, no tienen ni idea de lo que dicen o hacen.
Que Dios nos perdone, por nuestros juicios humanos en su nombre.
gracias por tus pensamientos mi amigo La vida puede ser tan cruel a veces y más dolorosa cuando ve que su hijo se adelanta a usted. Con todo mi entendimiento después de años de lucha, me sentiré tranquilo de que dejamos este mundo cuando llegue el momento, nos guste o no, sufriendo lo que sea.
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What a sad story. I am so sorry for what happened to your daughter. Thank you @olivia08 for bringing this post to my attention. The upvote is the least I can do here.
Thank you for coming here @phortun. It was almost unbearable really, but I thought of my kids who were still too young during that time so I have to keep my sanity in tact. Well, that registrar whom I blamed for my daughter's death almost had a nervous breakdown! My eldest son and daughter's 'hubby' took turns in rushing to their house. I had a pistol and almost killed a person if I was not intervened. Everything was in turmoil. Even the mayor asked us to keep calm until the burial is over. Actually, they asked to settle things out since they've had restless and sleepless nights since then.
Thinking it over, am ever thankful that it did not happened. The hurt was beyond compare but I have to be firm.
Going to church made things lighter. Our pastor's message every Sunday melted the burning flame inside me. He kept on reminding us that giving our forgiveness to those who have made our life miserable will set us free and move on with our lives. It was a tough one but I've managed.
Thank you for reading dear friend. God bless us all.
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I don´t really know what to say. This is such an emotional story. You must be a very strong person.
Kahilak ta ug tagok ani
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Tinuod jud! That's right sister @olivia08. But I told myself to move on and forgive those who have indirectly made her life miserable. This is all for now as I am feeling some tightness in my throat again. Oh my!
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What a terrible story. I believe in the Netherlands you can get married at that age. The parent have to agree with it and the King. The king is just formality. I agree people should be more supportive and so does the law. I was pregnant alone with 17 and abandoned by everyone. I am still there but it is not that I forget. The thing is family, society and the government only think about themselves. They blame you plus you bring shame over them.
There is no age guarantee for being a good parent. Society makes but in most cases breaks you.
I wish you strength and love.
Btw a freewrite is fine/allowed.
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It was hurting on our part really. We parents agreed to just allow them to love together at the guy's house and give birth then they will marry when she reaches 18. We both sent them to college so they could give a better future for their son. Well, they were accepted during the first semester but they were forbidden during the 2nd sem for reasons that they're living together without getting married. It's against the Catholic rules they said. The irony was that my daughter was already falling in line among others at the registrar's office. The latter told her right on her face without any reservation saying "You're not allowed to enrol this time because it was found out that you two are not yet married and it's against the policy of the school since this is a Catholic school"
But then I asked the mother superior to give us some consideration for the future of our kids. My heart was breaking for them. At last they were accepted after many debating discussions but it seems that the registrar herself was not happy about. She's their teacher in steno and snobbed my daughter and she often talked about my daughter behind her back. Young as she was, was not able to bear the scrutiny of those prying eyes around her.
I just came from the office when she told me she's going to quit. That night at their house, she used the little rope attached to her baby's hammock and hanged herself, living behind her 8-month old baby whom she breastfed 100%!
I was shocked when they called and told me about what happened. I couldn't believe it since she was still talking to me few minutes ago. Everybody was in shock especially her 'hubby' who almost went crazy.
We didn't know how to tell relay the incident to my husband who was still abroad on board his ship.
I was a heartbreaking sight when her baby stoop on her coffin and asked for his milk. Everybody was crying because her baby won't accept the feeding bottle. They feared for the little boy's health. The following day, his father went to their neighbor's house and knocked on the door saying "Good morning... please feed my baby". She also had a baby you know and she immediately hugged my grandson and fed him. It was a blessing in disguise that there were three young mom's near their house, who took turns in feeding him. He gradually accepted bottle feeding. That 8-mo old baby whom my depressed daughter left behind is now a sailor and just aboard his ship a month ago.
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@sarimanok What more can a child wish for as parents who love each other and supportive grandparents?
You do not need a paper to be married, marriage is something church started with, the same with the rules they made.
The mother superior is not a Christian. She forgot Jesus his mother was not married neither was Jesus himself. Who is she to judge but also what gave her the right to ventilate her hate and envy on a young mother?
I admire you you said you forgave her I doubt I would. It is easy to say but I know by my own experiences saying is not the same as being able to. There are moments you think you can but the moments it eats you are there too and you know you cannot forget and the bitterness stays although it does not rule your life. Mind and saw need long to heal.
It is good to hear your grandson made it and grew up into a fine young man. He had a great dead literally knock on his neighbor's door asking for help and those neighbors are gold and rare.
I wonder if you spoke to the Mother superior after your daughter died in such a painful way, suffered so much.
If you wonder how you could not have known it... You couldn't. She was happy and at the same time broken by a cruel person who is not a Christian, not able to love her "neighbor" like herself, as God.
I hope something good came out of it although I cannot help feel for your daughter and son in law. The times they went through the loneliness and envy. It is not easy to ignore, live with that. I hope she is safe and her soul shines upon all of you. Be blessed.❤️