I hate to sound so crass, but you are still, and always will be an addict...thus the reason you didnt take the narcotics. You are strong my friend. I am still working on an introductory about myself, but it is very gritty and sadly I have had many relapses. I am looking to build a new "recovery" community on steemit about all sorts of addictions/addictive behavior. I hope to change my drug of choice to steeem, it might just save my life.