Wow every item in your bucket list is a huge dream @faitherz33 ! I am sorry to hear of your hard past and I am glad that you have a wonderful family now. Life is not easy to get out when there are traumatic pasts embedded during childhood; but nothing is impossible (especially in my current faith). I wish you all the best and my prayers are with you so that you will be totally set free from fear and become the true courageous and beautiful person you truly are from the day you're made in your mother's womb.