hugs. am so sorry. must not be easy to always feel depressed.

have you tried to seek professional help?

what are you hobbies?

i dont see it as pointless to talk to ANYONE, seriously. and i for one sure, nobody wants you to keep on suffering, not wanting you to change your situation, and I dont even know you, but here I am, bumped to this post and I so want to listen to you.

try (hard) to keep posting (talking) especially when you feel depressed.

share us your hobbies....baby step...no need to update every 2 h as some people do, not even once a day, but share us your hobbies.

sending good vibes, my friend.