I used to behave differently with various souls. So much so that i literally didn't have much of a sense of self. It's no fun and is a distraction to whatever is your real life purpose or Dharma. You know...?

I get it though when we work corporate and have bills to pay sometimes we Get wrapped up in that game.

It's not so much that I don't have to worry about my family judging me. (although my kids are especially unjudgie, but not necessarily the rest of my extended family.) It's more that the pain of being unreal became greater than that of being real.

Thanks for sharing your struggles and relating here. I wish you all the best in your dream of financial and interpersonal independence. 😙