Sorry to hear of your loss. This year has not been kind to me, either. I've learned that my mother is terminally ill, lost a beloved dog, and was laid off from a job I liked. The job will actually be coming back in 2020, which is good.

In order to help me deal with the negative things, I've decided to cut out my escapes like alcohol and cannabis and just be present for all of the bad things. It's actually helped me deal with them better than trying to mask the pain.

I hope your new year is better than the last!