Why Christmas this year, is bad for me...

As this time of year came around again, I was looking forward to my usual mixed emotions of slight bewilderment, and a very mild melancholy.

This is just my usual 'christmassy' feeling. My default setting around this time of year, if you will.

Nothing to worry about. Same 'ol same 'ol.

This year is very different for me.
I find myself feeling happy about the whole event....

....My girlfriend is running around singing 'jingle bells' non stop, and making decorations to adorn the tree.
(I'm not sure where she acquired the tree....she is very good at acquiring things).

Her granddaughter came around last night, to help.

Two Thai girls singing 'jingle bells' is very funny. (aged 5 and 40).

Maybe it's because they are Buddhist, and it it's rubbing off on me.
If they can get excited about the whole thing, maybe I can too?

My heart melted when Lucy asked me 'do you want me to get a turkey for you, for Christmas dinner?'
I hate turkey.
(well not hate exactly - but a tasteless dry meat just doesn't get my taste buds tingling)
When I told her about my feelings on turkey, she said 'good' -- she hated it too.

Chicken it is.
This is my fifth Christmas with Lucy - but until now, there hasn't really been a Christmas at all. (which suited me fine)
We lived in party areas.
No turkey and lots of beer, kind of thing. I bypassed the festivities quite nicely, thank you.

Then We moved from party central, and chose to live a more chilled out natural lifestyle - and the pace of life has changed from hectic, to calm.
Much more 'domesticated'. ( which is quite novel for me, after years of hedonistic abandon)

Anyway, back to by point, and why Christmas is bad for me....

This emotional state is so unusual to me at Christmas time. (after several decades of the same melancholy feelings, you understand).

It is disrupting my thought processes. (I do have some occasionally, honest)
I can't get into 'my groove' while sat in front of the computer.

And with the price of sbd, and steem......rewards are by comparison, relativity high, right? Happy days, Right?
Months of $1 dollar postings everyday - now becomes $5 dollar posts, and much closer to enjoying the results of my labors..

Well, it would be if I could think of anything to write about...

This unusual happy juxtaposition, is not helping me - at all !

And this is why Christmas is bad for me this year.....

(And hopefully this will be a cathartic endevour in itself, and by just writing about it dispel the cobwebs...)

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