It's been a while since I made a Steemit post, as I was too busy obsessing over coconuts, climbing trees, and playing in nature. My injury began to worsen and bring me down, probably asking me for more attention...

As I continued denying it, I slowly became less and less able to play outside and even process coconuts... It was getting kind of depressing/boring since all I felt like doing was sleeping all day, but all I really wanted to do was be outside!

I've learned a lot thanks to this entire experience as well as from climbing, but it was time I did something more extreme/drastic to help me, since I had no idea what healing truly even meant... I ended up getting surgery for my ankle exactly 2 weeks ago! Now I'm actually learning how to heal since I'm in a way "forced" to heal (if I learned anything from before, it would pretty stupid not to in this situation!), but also finally learning the real meaning of healing in the process!

I am so grateful my mom found an extremely skilled professional surgeon with over 15-17 years of experience mastering hundreds, if not, thousands of procedures all dedicated towards the same specific type of ankle talus bone injury I had to go through! I feel like he has done this surgery as many times (or more!) as I've climbed coconut trees, haha!

It wasn't easy to surrender my body over to anyone like this, and even felt like "running" away at the last minute out of fear... but he gave off the most genuinely confident and super considerate vibe I could've asked for from anyone working in a hospital and felt super safe and entrusting in his hands! (Literally!)

Tomorrow I will be seeing the doctor again since he performed the surgery in order to get this soft cast off and start using a removable boot instead! I am so ready to set free (and see!) my limb after so long! (Not really thaaat long, but the longest I've ever experienced in my life, hehe.)

It's been an interesting experience since I've never been so immobilized in my entire life! The first 2 days I literally didn't even leave this room! Opposing to how I thought I would feel after surgery, each day I've been feeling exponentially more happy, healed, in love, appreciative, free, empowered, and motivated!

I started eating all raw, intermittent fasting, and actually resting with determined healing focus since the moment I woke up after the surgery. I also began reading more than I ever have in my entire life combined, and watching a bunch of videos about healing. It honestly feels like I woke up to an entirely new awareness about real healing in these 2 weeks than my whole life! 

This is basically a chance to start healing the same (or an even more severe) injury as if it freshly occurred, instead of after waiting nearly 2 years since it happened... when my body had already technically "started and finished" healing on its own. As the body is so divinely capable, it begins healing immediately when the injury is caused... but I didn't tune into my bodies healing needs back then as I am able to now!

Thinking back, I still find it hard to believe that I was capable of ignoring it so hardcore, and literally went on with life as if it never broke (not that I even knew nor wanted to believe it did...). I kept using it for at least a year without a moments rest, besides in my sleep... casually (daily) climbing cliffs, trees, waterfalls, boulders, hiking mountains, traveling, walking, running, jumping, carrying backpacks and coconuts, driving, and so much more starting the same day I hurt myself... It hurt so much but I thought it didn't matter and was healing and going to heal regardless.
Now that I look back at that I can't help but think what an idiot I was for being so clueless... however I had zero knowledge on healing bones so it's not like I knew better... no excuses, it's still obviously my fault all that happened and I love myself for it anyways!

Now I can use what I've learned, as I know I am super capable of doing whatever I want, no matter how much pain I feel! I am finally super focused on intentional healing, and I will NOT repeat the same unconsciousness!

I am so excited to finally start applying comfrey tinctures multiple times a day every day for optimal healing starting tomorrow!

I am only letting LOVE, HEALTH, HAPPINESS, THRIVAL, FREEDOM, APPRECIATION, and ABUNDANCE in my life!