Dude, there are many people who really care about you in steemia and so, much as it might look tough right now, you have a huge strength in you and a massive tsunami of support. @barrydutton forwarded a post and many of us resteemed - keep in touch and know that there is an invisible division of @mallorcaman infantry and wellwishers really wishing you the best they can muster. Keep strong. Namaste!